Bad man
Rough hands
A beard like Santa Claus
But Santa doesn't like little girls, does he?
Not like that
Not like you
Black eyes
Black as dirt under the fingernails of a madman
Sitting in his corner, playing with his dollies
Frothing
Popping off their heads
And flicking them into his tall, inescapable tiddle cup
This is just a game to you.
Don't look at me
don't touch me
o god no don't
pleasepleaseplease
don't stand so close
don't laugh when you do it
when you take me
drain me out
suck me dry
you can do what you want
but please
don't laugh
Sinking down
Down, down, down in that chair
Hoping maybe you won't see
That today I am a wounded deer
Wearing that shirt you like
Because you told me to
I've outgrown it
The sleeves are too short
And I have to pull it back down all day
Because it rides up the front til my baby fat shows
I was twelve years old.
Which maybe isn't wrong to you.
After all, Dante fell in love with his Beatrice when she was eight.
But guess what, fucker?
This isn't love.
This is just sick.
Not old enough to know why
But I was old enough to understand
That you were bad, bad, bad
Pleasedon'tpleasestop
Pleasepleaseyoucan't
WhywhyyoutoldmeIwasyourfavorite
So why
Are you
Hurting me?
HelphelphelphelpPLEASE.
Books clutched to my chest, but you stared right through
Bad man, bad, bad
No mister
That's not allowed
Science is the only thing
that you're licensed to teach me
Don't look at me again
don't touch me again
i won't be your nymphet today
hop hop lenore
off to class
you're the reason I hate being touched now
I was helpless then
But now
I'll never be yours
Your structure is really well done- the pauses and phrases that run together.
ReplyDeleteI generally advise to add- imagery or detail, but this almost needs cutting. I think it may ramble a little too much? I feel like by the end I am thinking, ok, I get it, are you going to say something new or what? See if there is anything that feels too repetitive and cut it or revise so that it is a fresh take.