Bad man
Rough hands
A beard like Santa Claus
But Santa doesn't like little girls, does he?
Not like that
Not like you
Don't look at me
don't touch me
o god no don't
please
don't stand so close
don't laugh when you do it
when you take me
drain me out
suck me dry
you can do what you want
but please
don't laugh
Sinking down
Down, down, down in that chair
Hoping maybe you won't see
That today I am a wounded deer
Wearing that shirt you like
Because you told me to
I've outgrown it
The sleeves are too short
And I have to pull it back down all day
Because it rides up the front til my baby fat shows
I hate it
And you say you love it
So I hate it more
I was twelve years old.
I was twelve.
I was only twelve you sick fuck!
Not old enough to know why
But I was old enough to understand
That you were bad, bad, bad
And yeah
I was old enough to know it was wrong
You were wrong
Books clutched to my chest, but you stared right through
Bad man, bad, bad
No mister
That's not allowed
Science and math are the only things
that you're allowed to teach me
Don't look at me again
don't touch me again
i won't be your nymphet today
hop hop lenore
off to class
you're the reason I hate being touched now
I was helpless then
But now
I'll never be yours
I really like how you used pauses and words in this poem, and how you had both long and short lines. Your description was so livid that I could actually feel that science teacher looking at me and making me uncomfortable. I feel like this poem will touch all of its readers. Only thing I can really think of is maybe thinking about some possible images to add.
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed this poem a lot. I could feel your emotions through the words, they were very powerful. I was just curious about one line. The last few lines were really good, how you turned a bad experience where you were a victim into being a survivor and stronger person.On the sixteenth line down where you say "you can do what you what" I don't understand and think it might be a grammatical error. I wonder if there might be something to change in that line to make it a bit more clear.
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